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Lightheaded and Twisted July 31, 2008

Posted by bebenibadoodles in Bitches and Brats.
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My head is spinning this morning and i feel a slight headache that is starting to ruin my spectacular day.  For the past months, i have been thinking that pregnancy is just like being sick with Cancer… You never know how you will be feeling tomorrow.

My mood swings have always been a major problem with Badoodles from the beginning of time, but i don’t know how he keeps up with my ever changing reactions.  Perhaps, he has just got used to the idea that nothing is ever consistent with me except for the fact that i shall never be predictable.

It has become a very annoying pattern that i could not sleep when he is still out in the streets of Metro Manila when it is time for us to sleep or that he is burning his midnight oil infront of the computer in the middle of the night.

What is very annoying about the scenario is that i could not sleep when he is somewhere else and i am left alone in bed. The setback of not being able to sleep well in the night is that i feel woozy and lightheaded all day.

That’s extremely stressful when i need to go to work the following day.

I know i have been such a brat for the past four months, but that is all i am asking for. Never leave me alone because i feel like an abandoned puppy.  Don’t keep me up in the middle of the night waiting for you to hit the sack because i need to sleep without disturbance.

I guess, pregnancy is not after all the discomfort of the wife, but of the husband.

Perhaps he couldn’t wait until i deliver so that he can already be relieved of the anxiety of living with a crazy wife.  I am not hormonal.  I just want extra attention…. is that too much to ask for?

For now, i will have to deal with this uncomfortable feeling until the day ends and i get to sleep again tonight or maybe i will try to catch up on sleep by midday so i can focus on my tasks for the rest of the day.


The Price of Redemption July 21, 2008

Posted by bebenibadoodles in Bitches and Brats.

Jesus Christ spread his arms on the cross to redeem the human race from the bondage of sin.

Catholics go through the Sacrament of Baptism to wash away the traces of original sin.

Life is indeed full of contradictions. 

They say that Christ is the son of God, but he had to sacrifice his life for the redemption of ill mannered humans.

Old folks say that babies are innocent, but they are given the sacrament to wash away the sin that has been passed on to them by Adam and Eve.

The past couple of weeks have been the most stressful time of my life. It seems that the intrigue and malice i encounter in the workplace has become a very essential part of my life.

I have given up on wonderful employment opportunities in the past just because people were more convincing and can easily persuade others than i could ever do in a lifetime.

Bless the soul of those that have talked ill behind my back just to wash their hands clean when i have been used as an instrument to expose their dirty linen.

I take pride in silence and being a keen observer.  I don’t loiter around the workplace that much, but i know every single detail that happens to the people around me, specially when it comes to matters that have something to do with work.

It is easy to keep mum and naive when everyone else is just playing the dirty game under my nose, but it is not at all easy for me not to blow the whistle when the time and the situation calls for it… and that is when i get crucified for telling the truth.

Question is, why is it so easy for liars and ill mannered people to twist the truth and appear to be the innocent victim of a mongering whistle blower.

But for all it is worth, this is the best i can do to protect the truth and the integrity of my job. I will not be going to heaven because of this, but one thing is for sure… they won’t either!