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Nature’s Make Over June 23, 2009

Posted by bebenibadoodles in Mommy Diaries.
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We are halfway through 2009. Life has been pretty much a hiatus of emotions over the first six months of this year. According to the book I have been scouring through this morning, a major turnaround happens with new moms from six months onward.

Apparently, the feed me-care for me-look at me-cuddle me dependence of new borns gradually gives way to the little tots desire for locomotion and more independence to move about.

Time has been flying right before my eyes lately. It seems that Baebidoodles is growing faster than I am able to accept the fact that she is developing into her own person with unique traits and attitudes. I would love our little girl to be little forever and to enjoy our mushy hugs in the evening and the innocent smiles to my whispered reminders before she goes to bed.

Six months ago, I was 160 Lbs and 8 months preggers. I have always been very conscious of the way I look and have been obssessive with the way my tummy looks.

At age 14, I was sweating my heart out exercising in secret just to be sure that no flab finds its way around my belly.

Last year, as I watched my belly extend beyond the limits of my imagination to accommodate a growing fetus that would kick only when Badoodles is around, I somehow forgot to be overly conscious about my expanding belly.

Although some occassional bastards sent me paranoid when they say that I have grown too fat, I seemed to enjoy watching it grow. For me, it was an assurance of a healthy baby that would soon turn my world upside down.

Then the D Day came on January 8. I went to the hospital armed with all the necessary things I could get to ensure that my belly returns to normal. I am not about to give up my life long achievement to the baby fats that will remain after pregnancy. I wore my belly binders for 4 months and would often tell Mama to tighten it when she helps me wear it. The tighter, the better – that was my principle – which should not be followed by New Moms and the Experienced ones alike!

Five months post pregnancy, i am still conditioning my body to return to my exercise routines, but I am still quite lazy to do it. I am not also allowed to diet while I am breastfeeding, but I am so thankful that my body has its own way of popping out the excess weight.

Our little girl is now moving about, kicking here and there, oftentimes her tiny hands would fly to my face and – man, it hurts! But it is the best part of being alive!

I enjoyed the entire nine months of my pregnancy. It was a bliss. It seems like all those months and the weight came and went, but with the passing of time, I am no longer watching my belly (as much as I did before).

My eyes are now on that little girl who is finding her way through life and is pretty much amused by what her hands and feet can do.

I love being a Mom. I love being Baebidoodles – human punching bag, blanket, feeding bottle, toy and everything that she wants me to be.

Best of all, I enjoy giving into her ‘childish kalokohan’ because she is just so cute when she starts being naughty.

I understand that the time for discipline does not start when she is old enough to tie her own shoe laces, but I have my way of instilling in her five month old mind the value of being a disciplined little person without making it too harsh and stripping her of the fun of being a child.

As much as possible, I would like her to grow up with many childhood memories of play and fun with her parents.

It would be my greatest pride and joy to send her out into the world with vast experiences that are filled with happy thoughts and the assurance that her family will be her shield, shelter and protection!